have you ever been so desperately thirsty that you literally ache all the way to your soul ? will I ever truly love again, I ask myself everyday. I ask my heart to soften, my souls to open and my mind to be lighter. memories of the past haunt me, haunt my dreams. sometimes I’d rather live in my dreams than here in this reality, it seems unreal. like a dream but one of those lucid ones you take mid-afternoon. I keep thinking I’ll eventually wake up and be right back where I want to be, back where I learned from my mistakes and this long nightmare was just a warning that I’d heeded. I wonder, you think you love me and perhaps you do, but how can one love another without first loving oneself. how true are you? not faithful, but true.
